Dear all,

I’d like to tell you that I have few birthday wishes to few people I love. There are:

1.  my dad- his birthday is on the 26th July.

2. my sister- her birthday is on the 31st July.

3. Danial – my sweet little cute boy, his birthday was on the 8th.

4. Peter, my very good friend who always comfort me whenever I need one. He knows when I need him without him to say anything till I speak.   His birthday was on the 8th too. 

To all my family and friends, I love you all.  No matter what happens to me, I can feel your TLC and supports till the end.  May God bless you all.

Love always~ Emma xx.

Hello guys,

How are you doing? How’s your week so far? It’s Friday and time to plan our weekend! 

I was stressed  in few days ago and now trying to recover from my stress.  The stress really makes my body tired and exhausted. 

I hope I will have peace of mind this weekend.   I hope my surrounding will allow me to do so.  Now, I feel I am ‘applying’ the theory of needs-  human needs and her environment relationship.  hehehe…

Alright guys, speak to you guys later.  I am in the library now. Hoping to get something done today. I have an appointment with a nurse to do the cervical screening test at 3. gggrrrr…. 

Love you~ Emma xx.

Dear All,

May you have a great Friday so far.   I didn’t do much work today. I went to uni (that’s why I am not fancy to go to uni as I don’t do much work), did couple of things in uni, played badminton (this was the reason why I went to uni)- I won 3 games out of 4. Yuhu!!  Met my colleagues for a while. I didn’t go to office this week.  Supervisors asked about me (gggrrr…my bet though! You know what, I think I am using avoidant-coping).  Anyway, then..I went to Sport Center- got myself a very cheap tennis racquet and the funny thing was my racquet is for junior! lol.  I was so embarassed and asked the silliest question when I held my racquet in my hand and asked the salesgirl- “Is this tennis racquet?”  lol.  She said yes. hahahaha.. Then, I went to another salesgirl- “Is there any racquet for female player?” lol. hahahha….  Two salesgirls assited me this afternoon. It was funny.  I told the cashier lady- it’s been a long time I played tennis. I am good in badminton though. Have I told you that I won 3 games today?   LOL.  

I finally found my water bottle.  I got white Fila brand one.  heheh.. 745 ml. Well, it’s not enough for one day. So, I need to find  water cooler or ‘water machine’. ahahha…

Then, I went to Sainsbury’s to get some raisins, cream cheese (I just found that cream cheese is an American slang. In the UK, we called it as soft cheese), chicken and 2 bagels.  

I had a cup of nescafe.  Gosh..my diet’s gone!  lol. 

Hey, what am I talking about? My title is ‘teachers around the world’. lol. Anyway, I’d like to share you this link that I recieved from my very good and caring and loving friend : http://www.teachermovie.com/ . I have  many good, caring, and loving friends. Don’t get me wrong   

I am touched with this short video clip.  I taught before I came here.  I enjoyed teaching.  I liked to share my knowledge with my students and others.  I loved to learn from my students and others too.  Learning is a two-way communication, right?

[Have you seen the video? Come on..watch it first, then read my next para...lol ]

In my department, I was the youngest lecturer for certain years.  I had the pressure because of those lecturers who were older than me had their experiences in teaching and working with industry.  So, the pressure was there. I tried to cope and ‘tried to find my identity’ as a young lecturer.  I remember I asked this question after I graduated from the States- “What kind of lecturer do I want to be?” My answers were: – “ I have to find my own identity.  I have to find my way of teaching. I have to find how to attract my students to love knowledge as I do.  I don’t want them to flunk. I want them to succeed in what they are doing.  I want my students to be ’someone’ in the future. I want them to know the world out there is not easy as they think. ”

My next question was: “Will I be a good role model to my students?”  ” Will my students understand if I am fussy ad strict in my teaching?” “Will I learn a lot from my students and will they learn a lot from me?”  “How to treat my students?”

My last question was :  “Will I teach my students the right thing?” 

Guess what? I tried and tried so hard to be an outstanding lecturer.  The most and greatest thing Ialways remember where I learnt about life from my students.  Some students, they grapple in their lives in their own way.  Sometime, I burst in tears when heard about their life.  Was it alright to cry in front of my students?  I don’t have the answer till now.  But for sure, I was touched.  I tried not too though, but I just couldn’t hide my feeling because that was my genuine feeling.  I got mad when some lecturers did some  inappropriate ways to my students.  Of course, I checked the things before I talked to them. 

I know, students have their own favorite teacher. I do too.  I still remember my teachers who taught me about life.  So, to my teachers, I’d like to wish you Happy Teacher’s Day.   I really want to find my former teachers and say thank you to every teacher.  If not because of them, I won’t be here. I heard, some of my teachers, they passed away.  AL-Fatihah. 

Alright guys..it’s getting emotional. I haven’t slept since 5.30 this morning.  So, I’d better log out and snooze. lol. 

Good night London.  Good night everyone.  Good morning to my parents and family and friends  and brothers and sisters.    Miss you all.  Hug and kiss for you all. 

Love~ Emma xx.

Dear all,

Thank you for your care and support. I didn’t do anything today.  Couldn’t help it.  This morning, I had headache right.  Then took some medication to prevent not to get more sick.  Then I was drowsy and slept till 4.30pm!  hahaha ..

My body, indeed was tired and I guess I deserved to sleep even though I have so much to do. 

I had my dinner already.  So, I am in my room again.  Hoping to do something tonight before go to bed. Hope I can sleep again. 

To all, I thank you for your comments.  I really appreciate it. 

Till then, take care and have a lovely evening ahead.

Love ~ Emma xx.

Good morning everyone,

I am cranky this morning. Didn’t have enough sleep and didn’t have good sleep either. oh well..that’s why I don’t like to be pissed.  My brain is tired now.  Thinking to take a nap soon, but my body doesn’t want to.  I guess I need to find something to make my body’s tired. 

Cleaning the house? mmm..  I am pissed because the house is dirty not because of me and my housemate.  We always make sure our house clean. But when there is visitors, they just think this is their house too. That’s the problem.   I hate hoovering.  I hate mopping the floor. 

I am over-sensitive now.  See..a minor thing can be so major right now?  It effects my whole system. My psychological state. 

I am Miss Cranky.  I am Miss Grumpy this morning.  I have lots of things to do.  That’s life, right?  heheh…

I will follow the flow today.  Do you think you can talk to me?  mmm..I think you can..but don’t make me piss and add more trouble today.  I will try to put aside my pressure and think what I like to do today. 

The first thing I want to do is get into shower and start my ‘day’ with smile. I did smile but it was a tiring smile. Poor me…lol…

Take care and have a good day ahead. Don’t be cranky and grumpy like me today..not good… xoxoxo..

Love,

Emma xx.

Hello Emma,

Yes, our future is in our hands. We all know what we want in our future, but for some reason, we jump on the wrong track and keep going……..Even if we know, we deserve better…… Wanna know why? We are afraid to make tough decisions in life, because we don’t want to hurt others…. Yes, “for the picture determines your future”……What we have in our present life, will be in our future…..Nothing will change…..

Emma, don’t let people say bad things to you, or look down on you….Who gives these people the right to do that? I just want to share something with you about myself……I NEVER tell people what I am capable of doing……I don’t want people to appreciate what I do behind the scenes…… This is how I look at it……If people CANNOT see what you do, or good things you do, they are NOT worthy of you or your friendship……..It also means they are NOT good….. We don’t choose to be born beautiful??? We don’t choose to have talents?????We don’t choose to speak a language or believe in something……..God does……

Appreciate what you are, Who you are and What you are doing…… You are studying right????? You have created a blog right???? You are a good writter right????? You believe in family values right?????? These are only a few things that I have picked up from your weblog…… That to me is enough talent.

Here is one thing I will say to you Emma: “I won’t promise 2 be your friend forever & give you my take on life, because I won’t live that long. But let me be your friend as long as I live”. Hope that made you smile and lifted your spirits…..

NEVER LET ANYONE PUT YOU DOWN…….These people enjoy seeing that feeling……

Ian the turtle (Speaking wisely now)

Hi guys, 

Just want to share with you what kind of home I want.  Like I said in my previous, I want a house where I can be happy and feel relax in my house.   

Smile is important.  Warmth is another feeling I want.  Safe is crucial.  I want to be someone who can give me these or more than these beside TLC.  This will be my future home.   

I like to have a single storey house but spacious. I like to have big bedroom with my own big closet!  I have my own shoes closet too!  heheheh…My bathroom has shower and bath tub.  Also, 2 sinks.  hhahaha… I think I need my own mirror. I don’t want to compromise when I brush my teethc and do my make-up in the morning. 

I want my kitchen big, nice, and I have every kitchen appliance in my kitchen. So that I can enjoy my time in kitchen.  I learn something when I am abroad.  Cooking is my therapy.  I think, I want to invent cooking therapy in the future. lol.  My living room, my dining room and I have my own mini library in the house!  Big car porch – I believe we will have at least two cars.  I like big back yard so that I can hang out with family and friends like family gathering (e.g. for BBQ party).    I like to have flowers around the house.  Front yard is big enough to have small pond, trees, flowers, etc.  Like a mini garden and we can play football or frisbee. lol.  What a dream! 

I like red bricks for my wall. The floor, I prefer wooden one.  Of course, the good one. lol.  I like to have TV set with great speakers too. I enjoy watching tally.  I want to go home and relax in front of TV and watch my favorite programs.  I am thinking to get a cat as my pet.  But don’t know yet. Cat- I want to put on hold. It’s really hard to take care of cat.  lol.  If I can have a cat, I want white cat, heavy and cute. hahahha… .Gold fishes are a must!  I like to have fishes in the pond.  heheh..and water lily.

I prefer modern interior design.  Simple and elegant!  Color..mmm..don’t know yet. In my head now, is red!  hahaha….  But I prefer nice color like good for brain to relax.  I need to check the color. There is color therapy too. So, will do my revision before decide which color. lol. 

mmm..I feel relaxed now. hahahha..See, imagenary technique is helping to reduce stress and anger. lol. 

Thank you guys.  Breathing now..hahahha… 

Love ~ Emma xx.

Hey guys,

Hope you guys are alright. 

I was sleepy this morning and tired.  I took a ’short nap’ after I had breakfast. lol.  Then, I finally was on my track and did my work. 

Evening went well. I took a break around 5.30 this afternoon and went to Sainsbury’s to get some groceries.  Had good dinner…until someone really pissed me off. 

Do you have this feeling where you don’t like ‘a particular visitor’ in the house?  I tried not to think and see the person.  I feel not ‘good’ around the house.   Do you know why?  Because if I see the face, my evening will ruin.  Ok, you may ask me what kind of ‘face’? 

Ok- this is the deal.  The face is like when you see the pathetic face, never smiled, the eyes look so evil..the face ruins your day.  I am not sure whether I express this right.

Look- whenever you go to other people’s house, please ..please..please…greet and smile and be sincere.  Don’t show your ‘pathetic behavior’.  If you have problem at work, or with your family, or anything, please please please..don’t bring to other people’s house.   Everyone has a long day too.   Don’t add up another problem with your pathetic face. 

What is home? Home for me is a place where I can come home and be in the house happily and without stress.  I still believe  with ‘home sweets home’.   I want to have this home. I think that’s why I like to live by myself.  Just that, in London, it’s impossible for me to rent an apartment like when I was in the States before.  Ok, I am talking as a single lady k.  If I am married, it’s a different story.

I don’t mind to share and rent with others.  I don’t mind if people keep coming in and out.  That’s their life, right? Who am I to say?  But please , if you are friend of people of the house, be polite.  No harm to be polite, right? 

Ok..I don’t know what to say.  I feel like ‘enough is enough’.   It’s time to think about what’s next?  And what’s next for me now…?

I will try to cool down myself before go to bed. I don’t like to feel pissed before I sleep.  It’s not good for my brain and body and my soul too. 

I need to do some yoga…focus on my breathing. ;)

Till then, don’t be like me tonight.  It’s not good.  Take care and have a pleasant evening ahead.

Love~ Emma xx.

Guess who’s back, back again, Shaddy’s back, tell a friend…………A bit of Eminem…. Hello Emma baby. I hope you allow me to call you baby. A wise women once said to me, you can only call your friends baby… Are we friends yet? I really don’t want to offend this wise women. She will come around and tell me, You can only call your friends baby…….I get scared of her……. Anyway, you want to know where I have been, right? My Minnie died. Her dream was always to die like romeo and juiliette. So I thought I would do it for her. We both planned to kill ourselves at the same time, but the idiot didn’t know that I lied. I remember someone told me once, use your mind and not your heart. My heart said Minnie is ok for my grandfather, but my mind said, Nah, move on and find someone better…..So I did. We held a knife to our hearts and said, count 1 to 3 and we do it. My Minnie didn’t realize that at school I learnt only to count to 2. So I reached to number 2 and she got to 3 and stabbed herself. Tragic moment. Do you think I done the right thing? Learning from 2 to 3 is very hard. So we went to Canada to bury her. Do you know where Canada is? Its in western Africa next to Singapore. She is out of my life now. I only married her because it was arranged. My mum said to me, Indian girls are the only girls in the world that can have babies. She lied to me. I thought you buy babies from supermarkets. I still haven’t forgiven my mum. So if you didn’t know that, now you do. Not only Indian girls can have babies. So pass that message on to all your friends and make them aware of that. Emma baby, as you realize, my blogs are attracting people to your weblog. I have a proposition for you. I can buy your weblog off you, you can be the manager, but we call it “The Fair enough Blog”. Think about it. I will give you tonight to do so and we can discuss tomorrow. I just feel our supporters and fans out there want to read something interesting. I mean, who wants to read about how sunny it is in London, about how to make chocolate sauce, about meeting a little girl on a bus, comments made by aunti zhoo, about some love heart chocolate. This is 1970’s talk emma baby. If you don’t like that idea, then I believe you should create a link for me called “Ian the turtle” where I just write my own stuff. Ok, who is this lucky girl??????? Do you really want to know? Oh, i cant tell you!!!!! Replying to Kirsty (Comment 4), It’s more like I am the lucky guy to know this girl……………. Abit of history on this girl……I asked this girl to be my partner, but she slapped me really hard on the face. I asked her “Why did you do that”? She said, “I thought I saw a fly or mosquitoes!!!! Then she said I just know you are not the one for me”? I said “Why”? It’s because I have my chamomile tea with 2 spoons of sugar and she has it with no sugar. How crazy is that? I was so shocked!!!!! I went home and asked my mum and she said, go and ask your dad, I am busy now. She was waxing her legs at the time, in the kitchen, while cooking….Yuk….. So I went and asked my father, he said yeah that is normal. I thought, is everyone crazy? He said to me, I married your mother because she has her coffee with skim milk, and dad had it with skim milk as well. After he told me that, I looked up to the sky and thought “Fair enough”…. So now, I am trying really hard to have my chamomile tea with no sugar. Its very hard though, but if you love someone, then I am willing to give up 2 spoons of sugar. This girl means a lot to me. I don’t think she knows how far I would go to be there for her, and make sure she is happy. When she was born, it was raining. Wanna know why????? It’s because the heavens lost there number 1 angel. So they cried……. You want to meet me in person? Oh, emma baby, I have shivers running down my spine. My hands are shaking. I am a very shy and nervous boy. If we meet, can I bring my mum with me? You can bring your aunti zhoo as well. Then they can talk to each and we can all the time for ourselves. You say I have a soft loving heart? You also say, we should open up to each other. Oh, emma baby, I have opened up to you so much? Can you tell me about yourself. Please don’t tell me, that you sleep at 11:30pm, what you eat, about some books, going to library. Just tell me what size bra you wear? This is very hard stuff. Someone tried to explain the sizes for me one day, but I forgot them? Something about DD or something. Based on what you write, I think you are a size C. I can just feel it…. Ooops sorry Sue. I was just feeling a work colleagues boobs. I got carried away. I think sue’s one are very large. You also say we can all learn from Ian. I will teach you all that I know, but if you promise me to teach me how to count to 3. If you need any advice on life, or help, I will try and help. I will check your or OUR weblog everyday. Ok, time to sleep now. Good night Europe, Good Morning Asia, and who cares about America…. See I am talking like you now…….. Right……I knew we were made for each other. Good night, Emma baby….. PS: Mike, You should learn from your parents mistakes – try using some birth control. Now F*** off as your comment is not welcome here……. Ian the turtle……Back in Emma’s weblog…

My reply:-
Hello you,

Welcome back, Ian the turltle Some of us here were wondering where were you? What were you up to? Some of my bloggers asked me personally about who was Ian the turtle? Anyway, I am glad that you ar back to my blog. I bet you had a tough time before. I am sorry to hear about Minnie. What a pity you don’t know how to count to 3. How to teach you to count to 3? It’s really hard to teach you when you know what is ‘3′. lol. Are you trying to make joke here? lol.

See, other side of you is sweet. You said, you are lucky to know the ‘lucky girl’.

This is my blog, and I created a column for my bloggers to tell their stories. I thank you from bottom of my heart. Because of your column, bloggers visited my blog. I have a suggestion- create your own blog then? Why do you want to share with me? lol. This is my blog (my ego says this). lol. I can write about my life here. I don’t share something like my bra size to my bloggers. Are you out of your mind? lol. You really know how to make me smile.

I was so surprised this morning. Checked my emails. Gosh, I got like million comments in my blog from you. I had a cup of coffee and a small piece of New York cheesecake for my lunch. How pathetic is that?!

I think you need to re-learn the world map. hahaha…I know where is Canada? See, you just like to bluff me around. I know I am not good in geography- in this 10 years, I travelled quite a lot. lol. Don’t forget, I am from Malaysia and Singapore is really near to Malaysia. lol. Did I tell you that, I was in Singapore before I returned to London last month? lol. See….told you..I travelled to some places in this world.

Alright Ian. Welcome back! I really appreciate your comeback. Shy with me yeah? mmm..some of the men I met, they were so shy at the first place. After we met, they were not shy anymore to me. They can talk and express their feeling How cool is that? They still shy with other ladies though. lol.

Take care and need to start my work. Welcome back

Emma xx.

Hi Emma baby,

Thanks for visiting Ian’s and Emma’s blog….Your comments are always welcome here, and we will always do our best to read them and respond to them. Who is Ian the turtle???? Who do you think Ian the turtle is? Where is Ian the turtle located? How old is Ian the turtle? So many questions……..NO answers…….. I am not sweet…..Sweet is for gay’s…..This lucky girl is just incredible….It was a wish come true…. Wanna know how I met this girl????? Ok, this is what you do…….When the night comes, look at the sky. If you see a falling star, don’t wonder why, just make a wish. Trust me, it will come true, because I did it and I found her…… The next time I see a falling star, I would wish I can just hold, and hug this girl for ONE more time….. Now you ask? Where is she? Well, we are so much like each other, accept that she is a shop lifter…..Yes, she is currently in Jail serving a 3year sentence for stealing….. She does it all the time…..The first time I was with her, she was caught stealing a water melon from a fruit shop….She tried to hide it under her shirt so as to look pregnant…….She did and the people were saying, Oh you guys are so cute……I accidentately stepped on her foot, and she dropped the water melon…… People were looking at us, so I said to her “How dare you cheat on me with a rock melon”. ……. I thought she slept with a rock melon and gave birth to a water melon……The people didnt believe me…….Why do you think that is the case????? Alright enough about this girl…….. Lets talk about you!!!! I dont want to create another blog…..We are a team now……We do things together….. Counting to 3……You know what, I am not so good in Maths, but I can be very cheeeeeeeky…… Here is a formula that I just thought of…….Add a bed, subtract ur clothes divide your legs and we can multiply! Wow, this is very naughty…….But you bring that naughtiness in me…… I am so glad I made your lunch more enjoyable…….You sit and read my comments, have a cup of coffee……..That’s how I want to see you……Happy……..You seem to be a very nice person…… We could be friends forever……You cry, I cry…….You laugh, I laugh……..You jump out the window……..I stand, watch and continue laughing……..Just sweeeeet…….. Singapore is near Malaysia……..Are you joking again????? I don’t like people that joke and tell lies……..A wise women once told me, she hates people that lie……..Please dont do that to me……You and I have something going…….I don’t know what it is, but it is going……..I can feel it……..Oh, not again, I pissed in my pants…….Sorry, i thought i was feeling something but it was my pee……. Ok, when we meet each other, you can teach me Maths and Geography…… I am a person that lacks confidence and is very shy…….With you I feel different……..There is just something about you……..Not many girls I have opened up to…….I can send you a picture of myself, I just dont know how I can do that on OUR weblog….. Anyway, it is time for me to go……. Thanks Emma for visiting Ian’s and Emma’s weblog…… Gee, I can be a pest…… Need to say a prayer for my dear friend now, she has something important to do………She is trying to wear her left shoes on her right and right on her left…….She is even travelling to another city to do that……..My prayers and thoughts are with you ALWAYS my precious cookie……… PS: Keep smiling Emma, that’s what life is about…..Being happy……Never fear, Ian is here…….Wow, I can even rhyme now….. Peace out and Keep bloging…… Ian the turtle