Hello guys,
Salam Ramadhan..it’s been forever I didn’t update my blog. I am ok..but unwell due to the weather changed. Called my mom just now to ask for her help to buy some lemons and honey.
I am at the airport now..queueing to check-in. So crowded…
Anyway..I don’t know what to write..Hope everything goes fine. And see my parents soon.
Till we meet again. Take care.
Love, Emma xx.
Dear all,
Here am I again…another packing episode in my life in just for 2 weeks! Hoping to finish packing by tomorrow night, then on Thursday will do house cleaning- sweeping, vacuuming, scrubbing, etc. I love to do cleaning than cooking though..but when it comes everything on my shoulders, I feel exausted.
The weather starts cooling again. I can feel my body resists to the temperature. Yes, true..I will be home. I really need to do some medical check-up and see my doctor back home.
I hope everything goes fine when I am at home. Find my ways to continue my phd journey. Definitely, I will share my days with you all out there. Please pray for me. I feel that I am so far away my Creator. Nauzubillah…
Alright guys..tiring after packed some of my clothes. I am in my pink bed, writing this blog, and at the same time watching Channel Five- Mary Magdelina- sin or sinner. Need to rest.
Take care all. Have a good night. Sweet dreams. Salam Ramadhan.
Love always~ Emma xx.
Wanna to share with you my meal. A glass of pineapple juice, some rice, vegetables (i boiled them without any seasoning..really fresh..), and some buttered prawn. 
Enjoy! xx
Hi guys,
It’s been a while I feel down. Try my best to face the new world. I hope I can think straight and more positive. Think all possible alternatives about my research.
Oh Allah, please guide me to Your knowledge. Protect me, my parents, and my brothers and sisters from bad deeds, dishonest, insincere people. Amin…
Write again tomorrow. InsyaAllah, you will “feel” my happy feeling.
Take care and have a great time
Love always from me, Emma xx.
Hello all,
Yesterday, as usual, I managed to do some of my works. Yes, I am good in handling my stress..I can work under pressure. Even though I still think of the whole thing. Meaning, I am in denial- I am working, to distract my mind not thinking about the whole issue, to make myself exausted by using my whole energy up and make me sleepy. Therefore, I can rest and sleep. But, after I got up, the whole thing is still in my mind and I start to think again. That’s the process.
Last night, my friends and I went to Lebanese Hiba Restaurant. We orders so many food, and couldn’t finish them all. Hanged-out with them made me feel alright. At least we talked and shared some uncomfortness as a phd student. I think it’s important to have social support. We plan to go for eating out again after I come back from Malaysia. On our way to London Bridge Station, we passed by Georgetown Malaysian Restaurant. We looked at the menu..mmm..not bad but not that interesting. Anyway, we plan to go to one of Malaysian restaurants for Christmas dinner.
This morning, got up and felt alright. Planning to stay at home and do my work here. It’s cloudy today and may have some showers. I hope I feel much better at the end of the day. amin…
Alright guys..thank you so much for your support, love, and care. Pray for my success here..everything goes fine..amin…
Thank you for reading my blog. Keep reading my online ‘journal’. I guess this week is my ‘not happy’ week and I need to do something about this.
Tomorrow, will go to Central London and hang out with Yvonne. So, hope the weather is better and I can enjoy myself tomorrow. Take care and have a good Friday ahead. 
Hugs and kisses from me. Love always~ Emma xx.
Hi guys,
To be honest, I feel so low now after came back from uni this afternoon. I keep asking mysel: Can I complete my phd?, am i ready for this? Am I giving full energy and effort in my phd? Am I critical enough? Am I in the right country? etc… I feel like to throw-up thinking about this. No one to talk to..no one to comfort me…I mean physically… Arrrgghhh…. I do feel I don’t give like 1001% energy and effort in reading, writing (the worst part), I am not critical and analytical enough..Why?
I know when I worked in the uni as a lecturer, I gave full energy in my task. I taught my students how to think critically and analytically in the class. I’ve written quite a number of research papers in the past 4 years. Now, I feel that all my research papers and presented research papers are rubbish (sorry to all my co-authors). It’s not about you..but I start to question my ability to write. You (my co-authors) were a great writer Trust me..I know I am so irrational and very negative now. Just need to calm and relax…mmm…but it’s not enough, isn’t it?
Having a mug of hot latte now. I feel everything seems not right at this time. I don’t know what should I do to calm? It’s good to have this blog to express myself. Thanks for being so patient here.
For those who are doing their phd in the UK, please ..please..let me know how do you cope in this situation? I need to have more English friends or any British so that I have supportive circle of friends to discuss about the whole thing about everything. Oh Lord..please guide me to Your knowledge. amin…
Low, Emmaxx.
Hello all..especially to Man who always encourages me to give this recipe. I’d like to share with everyone my mom’s recipe.
Buttered Prawn Recipe
Ingredients:
First Mixture
1/2 kilo of fresh king prawn.
1 egg
1 can of evaporated milk (any brand, ex: Carnation, Ideal Milk).
White pepper.
My huge apology to Man and you all- I forgot to mention, we need some cornflour. Depends on how much our prawn is. Man…so sorry..luckily you called me. I just remembered because when you told me about your ingredients, then I remembered. Even though at that time was busy with shopping! heheheh…
Steps: Mix everything above in a bowl and marinade for at least 30 min. Keep the mixture in the refrigerator.
Second ingredients:
Some onion, garlic, or red onion (just add as much as you like)
1 bowl of cornflakes or oat ( I prefer cornflakes) – squeeze the cornflakes in the bowl into small pieces.
Butter (depends on your prawn).
Some salt.
Some oil.
Steps:
Heat the oil in the frying pan. Not so much of oil because later we are going to use butter. I prefer olive oil. You can use any oil as you like. Then, add onion, red onions, and/or garlic. Fry them till golden. Then put the mixture of marinade king prawn in the frying pan. Cook the prawn till they are cooked. Then, add the cornflakes and stir them. Then add butter till you see the prawn and butter with cornflake like you see in seafood restaurants. hehehehhe…
Good luck and happy cooking. Nyum nyum nyum…
I apologize about the steps and ‘messy’ recipe. I am not good in giving recipe. When I cooked this dish, all my friends loved my buttered prawn.
Tell me what’s the result k. Especially you, Man This recipe dedicates to Man 
Thanks to my mom. Everytime I cook this dish, I call my mom to reconfirm the recipe. kah kah kah…If you want the right measurement, call my mom
Love~ Emma. xx.
Good morning to all..it’s 4 in the morning..Selamat Bersahur
I turned on the tally this morning, American Football is on! Wow, it’s the season now! Yu hu! I love American Football than football. Even I don’t really understand the rules, I just know the meaning of “touch down”. The most important thing is the footballers are surely tough and sexy LOL…their hands, their body..I know they wear the body/shoulder pad (who cares), the arm muscles, etc If you know what I mean
Orite..back to real life…I just had little baguette with Bree cheese, 3 glasses of water, 1 glass of vit C, milkshake, and a cube of pineapple for sahur. I couldn’t eat rice. mmm..is there any tip to eat early in the morning? At home, there was my family- the feeling ‘have to’ to eat was there. heheheh… Anyway, I will stay at home and do my work from home today. Tomorrow, will meet my first supervisor to update my log book and my student port folio file.
Alright guys.. write to you again. Wanna enjoy my American Football program before Fajr.
Take care and have a good day.
Love always~Emma xx.
Hi my dearest bloggers,
Good morning to you all. Feel so great this morning. It’s good to start my morning with sweet smile…bright day outside…
May you have a good and wonderful day
Love always~ Emma xoxox.
Dearest bloggers,
Last night, I had a wonderful time with my friends- Yvonne, Gemma, Rav, and Ted. Ted cooked a lot and I cooked buttered prawn. It was a lovely dinner. Thank you guys!
We forgot to take pictures of the food though.. hehehe… except this *-* (sorry)
Alright..write again..~ Emma.xx
