I am in my ‘temporary’ office ;)

Hello everybody!!!

How are you doing?  May everyone in a good health! 

I am in my temporary office..where? Jeng Jeng Jeng..hahahha..those who know me, I think you know where.  Anyway,  I am pleased to be here. In a condusive office, do my work. However, I haven’t started any yet today.  The internet connection is so slow here.  Since I came here..I mean, in Malaysia..the internet connection is really slow.  I don’t know why. 

Ok..don’t want to disturb you. Thank you for visiting my blog.  Please do visit me always.  I really appreciate your visitation.  May God bless you. 

Take care and to all my friends out there, I miss you all esp for those who are in the US, the UK, and Australia.  hehehe…Good luck to everyone. 

Love always from me~ Emma xx.

Hello my dearest bloggers :)

Hi there,

How are you guys doing out there?  I am fine, even though my hormone now is just like roller-coaster! hehehe..But I am glad my data collection is done now. It’s time to finish my transcribing and key-in the data.  Next step will be analyzing!  Scary part..but the most scary part is the writing part.  gggrrr…

I feel much better now.  I read self-help books and did some reflection on what am I doing and who i am? Remember last time, I was so down, nervous, etc..I guess I have to believe that I am doing my PhD and I have to be focused and serious about what I do.  Not to say that I wasn’t serious last time, but I had this feeling, ‘i don’t believe I am in London, and doing my PhD’. I have to have a strong belief system and will face any problems.  I have to move on progressively. 

I met so many people when I did my data collection.  I know that I should be thankful for what Allah determined and given to me. I shouldn’t be afraid of the problems, afraid of being lonely, or afraid not to be up to the my or others’ expectations.  I shouldn’t put too high expectation on myself because I should remember I have limits.  There is no point for me to push myself too hard till I feel so down.  I can push myself to achieve my goals in life.  I should be grateful for every second that I have!  I am not perfect! 

Compare me now and last time or in between last time and now, I’ve changed a lot.  I started to think negative and think that I have to think about others.  This happened after my first heartbreaking. After that, I learnt I shouldn’t be controlled by others.  That is not what I want. There is no such thing controlling others’ life.  In human relationships, we should compromise and talk and talk.  A relationship is about two parties who want to live together.  I don’t want to be controlled BUT I want to be reminded about my life, about my mistakes, and about everything.

Anyway..I just want to let you know that Emma is back from the darkness. I still believe, for whatever happens, there is always good thing behind it. 

I am tired now. Will write again.  Take care and hope to hear from you again.

Love always~Emma xx.

Help me!!!!

Hi guys,

I am back tonight.  Help me!!!!!  Why? Since I came back, my energy is draining.  As I mentioned before about too many distractions..I couldn’t focus 100% with my PhD thingie.  This situation makes me feel worried and anxious. For instance, now I feel like to do the transcribing..but I am tired physically. I hope I can continue again. 

Tomorrow will be hectic again. From morning till night time.   Put in this way- family, uni, personal, family, family, family..huargh..I get paranoid..May be that’s why I am not married yet. I thank my loved one understands me and my situation. 

I hope I can find some ways to solve my problems.  I need to be ‘away’ for a while.  I remember something, to achieve something, we need to sacrifice something.  I don’t want to be selfish, but sometime I think I cannot fulfil everyone’s needs.  That’s for sure. I HAVE to do something.  I have to BE Type A Personality. hehehe..

Alright guys..it’s getting late.  Wanna to find some hotels for me to stay next week.  For those who are in penisular Malaysia, meet me there..don’t ask me out before 5pm.  If you know what I mean

Love always from Kuching~ Emma xx.

Data collection :)

Hi guys,

My life in Kuching is quite hectic.  Even now, I don’t know what to write in my blog.  I am not sure what’s going on with me. Since I came back, my focus with my phd thingie is distracted.  I need to refocus. 

Oh well, I started my data collection in Kuching today. So far so good. 

Anyway, I shall write again. Update my blog from time to time.  Will fly to KL on this Sunday.  Pray for me.

Till then, take care and good luck to me ;) hehehhe.. 

Love always from Kuching~ Emma xx.

Salam Aidilfitri :)

Assalammualaikum and Good day to my dearest bloggers,

How are you? May you have a great life over there.  I am at home now.  Feel happy seeing all my loved ones here.  However, I need to refocus with my main purpose here.

I’d like to wish you Salam Aidilfitri and Maaf Zahir Batin. 

Till then, take care.  Need to offline soon.  Will write more later.

Love always from me..now in Malaysia ~ Emma xx.