Crystal

Dear my beloved bloggers,

May all is fine.  I am still unwell.  Coughing.  Hope recover soon. 

Anyway,  last Tuesday, I went for heat massage. It was good, as always.  Then my massueus lent me a crystal.  He said it’s good for my energy. He asked me to touch the crystal with my thumb.  I am not an abstract person- I am more to systematic person.  I need something to guide me.  That’s me.  Hard for me to understand something vague, abstract.  So he lent me and asked me to bring it back whenever I am ready to. 

Now and then, I touch the crystal.  Then I remembered my loved one told me, “Get a crystal, and put on the shelf of your bed”.  I have this shelf above my head.    I don’t know. 

All right guys, may you have a great weekend.  Take care and till we meet again.

Love always from London ~ Emma xx.

I miss my girlfriends :)

Hello guys,

My Saturday so far…mmm..is just like ‘by myself’.  Got up this morning and felt not feeling well.  Last night, after talked to mum, really struck me.  My heart is not here, but home- my own home in Kuching.  It’s been a long time I have this unanswered feeling.  Some of my funny feeling- I called it-makes me wanna to go home right now!  I feel that it’s my responsibility to go home. Something happens at home.  Like my girlfriend, Onn said last night, “You are emotional now. .” Yes, I was.  I talked to Onn for nearly one hour. It was so nice to talk to my real girlfriend again.  We talked until I felt asleep. 

Even though I slept like a baby last night, but it didn’t mean I had quality sleep.  This morning, I felt unwell.  Took my medicines and went to bed again till noon.  Then went shopping to relax my feeling. Well, again, I always use ’shopping’ as my excuse to not think about last night. Yeah, yeah..retail therapy. It’s not good, girls!  Trust me.  I enjoy shopping because I see colors. Try to practice my analytical, critical, and decision making. LOL.  Those things make me smile. 

Oh, I am freezing now.  Turned the heater on for 24 hours but still.  I don’t want to be sick. huhuhu.. You give me everything, I try my best to face it. But, parents..just I don’t know how to. I know when I am with them, I feel relieve. I dont mind to visit them now.  Buy air ticket to Malaysia now and visit them.  Chinese New Year, my birthday..everything may makes my mom sad.  I don’t want to make her sad.  She’s done so much! Do you think I should buy and just go? 

Anyway, I miss my girlfriends where me and them just can talk about anything!  Shop together, drive around the city, talk about nonsence and serious stuffs, laugh, eat and drink out, watch movies, and other things. 

Oh gosh! My heart is pumping so hard now.   I need hot drinks.  Do you want some?

All right guys, let me get some hot drinks.  Girlfriends, thank you for everything.  Thank you for always listening to me, wherever I am.  I love you! Hugs and kisses from me always.

Love,

Emma xx.

Gong Xi Fa Chai (Happy Chinese New Year)

To my dearest Chinese friends/bloggers,

I’d like to wish you a very Happy Chinese New Year. May you have a properous Ox year and God bless you all. 

I am still single- so, hoping to get some angpow this year which I think impossible. LOL.  In my Chinese culture, for those who are still single, we shall get angpow for blessing.  How cool is that! 

I am not sure what’s going on in London for Chinese New Year this year.  Like last year, I went to Trafalgar Square, China Town in Leicester Square, and Museum of Docklands.  The celebration was awesome and grand here! 

For my family, my beloved one, and friends back home who celebrate, Gong Xi Fa Chai! 

Take care. Hugs and kisses from me always.

Love,

Emma xx.

Oh boy!

Hello everyone,

How are you guys doing this week? This week was totally suck for me! I didn’t do much at all.  I supposed to write and finish my chapters, unfortunately, I feel like lack of confidence to write.  I try my best to write. I need to have mood to write.  I feel like I have writer’s block this week.  I cannot deliver what I have inside my head now.  I feel so ’stucked’!  So many things I’ve done to boost my confidence- oh well, might be I didn’t do so much. 

I just had my hot long bath and pampered myself.  It was good.  Did my facial and I decided to write in my blog. It’s been for a week I didn’t write.  I need to get back my energy to write.   You know, I feel like I want to take a break.  Like take at least 2 months break from uni.   Can I do that?  If I do that, my target to complete my phd in 2010 will be delayed! Oh, what a nonsence talk!  I hope there is miracle in my life now. 

For those who are doing their PhD or have completed your study, do you have this moment? 

All right guys, I think I’d better refocus.  Please pray for me and for my success.  Oh Allah, please give me more strength and guide me to Your way of knowledge and truth.  Amin…

Take care all.  Hugs and kisses from me.

Love,

Emma xx.

Beef Lasagna Recipe

Hi guys,

This is the recipe for the lasagna. Thanks to Ami- my colleague. 

A. Meat

1 tablespoon olive oil

1 onion, peeled and finely chopped

100g lean beef mince

1 Garlic clove

1 small can of crushed/chopped tomato

Carrots

Mushrooms

Cheese sauce- buy white cheese sauce from supermarket (LOL)

Pasta – Lasagna sheets -dried (in box)

Cheese toping- cheddar/mozarella (sliced or gratted).

B: How to do it?

First, cook meat

- oil in pan

-onion and garlic in pan. Fry them for 5-10 min.

- add mince- break it in the pan while heating

- cook till mince is brown

- add canned tomatoes

- then at end of cooking, add carrots and muscrooms

C: When all hot, put layers of meat and pasta (still dried), and cheese sauce till fill up pyrex dish. Put grated/sliced cheese as topping. 

D: Put in oven for 30-40 min.

Good luck!  Emma.xx

Grey still but I am all right..

My dearest bloggers,

How are you feeling? Hope you guys are doing all right- wherever you are. 

This morning, I feel much better, even though still don’t have mood to talk.  I decided to stay at home. Here I am.  Had good breakfast (fried egg and baked beans- nyum nyum nyum), doing my laundry now, vacuumed my room and the bathroom (! LOL), openned the windows- the house is stink! Gosh!  It’s cold downstair- I think you know why.  hehehe…

All right guys, I better do my school work now. Take care and have a good weekend, in advance. I plan to cook chicken curry tomorrow.  My English mate craves for curry.  LOL.  Will see how it goes tomorrow. As for me, I crave for seafood pasta. nyum nyum..still looking for the simplest recipe on earth! Guys, if you have one, let me know k. 

Hugs and kisses from me.

Love,

Emma xx.

What a knackered day! -_-

Hi guys,

It’s been a long time I didn’t feel like I did yesterday.  I had a very long day.  Almost every hour, too many things happened at once.  I am not sure is it the age factor or what.  After came back from uni this evening, took my hot shower and went to bed for nearly 2-3 hours.  I was drained!  I remember the last time I had this kind of low energy level when I did my teaching, research, and later in the day, I had like 2-3 counseling sessions.  My brain just shut down that night! 

When I have this ‘moment’, normally, I just keep quiet, do my things and have my own space.  Lazy to talk, unless speak to someone that I loved, soothe and relax me.  I am still knackered though and hope tomorrow will be better. 

I turned on the music I like- Michael Buble CD, lighted the aromatic burner, turned off the light, and layed down.   I focused on my breathing and I did muscle relaxation.  It felt good and I could feel all the stresses went through my toes and fingers.  I am so blessed that I know how to do self-therapy myself. 

All right guys, time for me to get proper sleep. Hope will sleep and recharge my battery for tomorrow.  Take care and love always from me.

Love,

Emma xx.

Beef Lasagna Simple Recipe

Dear guys,

Guess what, tonight, finally, I made beef lasagna. Yuhu!  2 thumbs up for me!  I thought it was hard to make. But it wasn’t. Just took quite a long time to make.

I got the recipe from my colleague, Amy. Very simple.  At first, I thought to make lasagna would take forever.  Well, it’s true. LOL.  First I had to cook the beef (with onion, tomato sauce, and beef) in the pan.  Then, did the layers (the beef, lasagna sheet, white sauce and so on and so forth. After did the layers, on top of it, I sprinkled a lot cheese. )  After that, baked for 30-40 min.  Depends on your oven. 

So guys, another Italian dish I learnt here. Nyum nyum..my housemate liked my first beef lasagna. How cool was that. 

All right, have fun in kitchen. Be careful in cooking. I burnt my finger while cooked the beef. ahak!!  So painful..huhuh…but at least my beef lasagna turned good, right? 

Love from kitchen~Emma xx.

Turning 31 in 6 weeks *-*

Hey guys,

Just wanna to remind myself, I will turn 31 in 6 weeks!!!!!!! Can you believe that!!!?  The big 3 and 1. Should I cry or should I shout happily? LOL. 

My friend and I plan to go to Paris.  Hopefully my dream birthday will come true this year. Last year, I planned to travel, but it didn’t work out because of my health. Of course, hopefully this time, I can make it.  Of course, I need to see my budget as well.  See how it goes in these few weeks. amin..

Can you believe that? I am going to be 31..not 21..not 11..not 41 yet…hua hua hua

Love~ Emma xx.

Beginning of my 2009 life..

Dearest bloggers,

How are you doing? How was  your new year eve? What did you do on new year day?  I hope you had a great time with your family and friends out there.

As I mentioned to you in my previous blog, I went to a theatre with a friend. The show was brilliant!  Splendid!  In the big theatre hall, and all the ice dancers or performers were so great.  Don’t be shock if I say, I start to fall in love with theatre shows!  We watched Cinderella on Ice.  2 thumbs up for the show!! Yu hu!!!! 

Then, we went to Chinese Restaurant. Had Malaysian dishes. LOL. Not that ‘really’ Malaysian dishes though. I heard the cook is from Malaysia.  Of course, he has to follow the taste of English people here   After dinner, my friend and I went to the palace to watch the fireworks and some kind of new year eve show.  It was freezing!  Gosh!  After the show, we went to the family fun fair.  I hate speed, to be honest. I tried the speedy thing- gosh- only God knew my feeling at that time!  Please don’t ever ever ask me to go for roller coster, superbowl speed, etc.  I am not that kind of person.  However, I loved the bumper car. LOL. I really had a good time. We played twice. £3 for each game, just for few minutes. But hey, I loved it.  I had this massive bumper car ‘crashed’. LOL.    The last thing we did on new year eve night, we went to this concert. Free one, of course.  heheh.  I never heard this singer- Adam Abraham.  He kinda won or something from X-Factor 3 years ago. 

To recap, I had a good time and experienced new year eve in the UK this year. I am so grateful that I am here.  Last year, I was in bed and sick!  Please pray for my good health and success. Amin.    Thank you

To be honest, I look forward to 2009 and get through this year. I have this feeling, this year will be a tough and challenging year for me.  I have to improve myself quickly so that I can manage to complete my PhD as planned.  I am scared. Don’t think that when I said ‘I look forward’, doesn’t mean I ‘am good’. I just want to face everyday in brave and strong.  I hope I can though.  Every night, now and then, when I think about my PhD and challenges, I have this fear.  Yeah, friends told me face the fear and see from the bright side of it. I am doing it and hope that I manage to cope every consequence occurs. 

My dearest friends, I need you to support me and not to judge me. Be there for me when I feel down. Be there for me if I want to share my happiness and sadness.  I need to courage and energy to move on.  I know, I ask a lot from you all.  I do apologize.  Least you can do, may be a prayer from you.  Sometimes, I feel my life is not easy and why is that? Because I am the one who make my own life isn’t easy.    How weird is that, yeah!?

My dearest parents and sis,

Every day you call and text me to support and love me.  Sometimes, I do feel touched.  I am a ’stubborn’ daughter.  I know that.  I won’t tell my problems to  you, but you know, especially you, Mak.  I guess that’s the special feeling of moms. Mom can feels when her child is in trouble or not.  I may lie, just that I don’t want you to be worry or upset. I may deny, because I want you to ‘know’ I am all right in London and in my study. I guess that’s life. I hate worrying  or hurting others, especially my family and friends.  So, I am sorry.   ^-^ xxx.

My dearest~ I  thank you for all your love, care, support, and understanding.  Without your motivation and encouragement, I may move slow in my life. Thank you for your trust and understanding. I know it’s not easy to be apart, but believe me, if there is a destiny for us, we shall be together, one day.  xoxoxo. 

For some reasons, I cannot sleep early tonight.  That’s why I am here and try to express my feeling to everyone.  It’s just a beginning of life for me.  2009 is like a bridge for me.  I have to build a strong bridge so that I can walk through it easily in this life. I know there are obstacles in my journey, and I feel scared to walk through. But, if I continue be scared, I won’t be able to be at the end of my bridge, right?  Please remind me if I astray from my life journey and my purpose of life.  Hit me, or slap me, or yell me or talk to me nicely (this is I prefer- LOL),  if you are ‘not seeing me as Emma’.

All right guys, I always welcome you to read my blog.  I hope to share my recipes.  Guess what, my mom’s chicken feet recipe attracted bloggers!  LOL.  So, have anyone tried my mom’s chicken feet recipe?  How was it? Share with me your result k!  Love to hear from you.   

Good night everyone.  Remember, I always love you. I miss you everyone I know – wherever you are in this world.  Hug and kiss from me always. 

Love from me in bed,

Emma xx