Asian ladies- Watch out!

Dear my bloggers,

‘Something’ triggered me and I felt like I wanna to write a.s.a.p.  I wish I had my laptop with me.  

All right, the story is like this:-

This morning, I was on a train to Waterloo East.  The train stopped at London Bridge Station.  Opposite me was a middle-aged English man.  An Asian lady in her 20s sat in front of me.  I had my iPod on and read few pages of Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho.  The Asian lady, I think she was Chinese.  She looked so hang-over.  She must be drinking last night and had too much alcohol, also might be she took some drugs.  Suddenly, I was shocked that she sobbed and talked to herself.  I didn’t hear what she said because I listened to my music. Even I heard her,  I couldn’t understand her language.  Anyway, she sobbed and cried in front of me. I looked the middle-aged man and a middle-aged lady and gave ‘the look’ (what is going on look?) to each other.  I could see that the Asian lady was regretted for whatever she did last night.  I felt sorry for her. 

I think I have to say and write something here.  I know so many men here, well, they are male friends here who prefer Asian ladies.    One of the reasons, they prefer our skins, not too pale.  I am not going to list out why men here prefer us! lol.

I want to give some advises to all Asian ladies who live in London or anywhere besides your own country.  You can ’sense’ from my writing that I am pissed! 

Dear Asian ladies,

We are nice. We are special and the sad thing (may be), we are NAIVE! Being away from family and try so hard to adjust into a new culture may give us a shock and the best thing that we really want is FREEDOM.  However, don’t forget that, we still have pride, value, and soul.  Don’t ever forget where we come from.  I don’t mean that we have to be stiffed and not open to new experiences. What I am trying to say is DON’T be stupid and EASY accept men’s invitation. Use your wisdom.  We will not be here if we are not smart enough.  We are lucky to be abroad!  Many of our friends back home dream of what we do here!  Trust me!  What I mean by men’s invitations are sex, drugs, and alcohol. Sound taboo, right but I’ve seen so many cases here.  Use our wisdom and learn how to say NO.  Trust me that these three taboo subjects are hardly to resist once you try.  Don’t be fool, k ladies! 

To men out there,

Please respect us in whatever you do with Asian ladies or any ladies in this world.  I have so many cases where my few male friends don’t respect ladies when they have sex, drink, and do drug. Yes, you can easily make us drunk and show your charm..and easily for us to fall into your arms.   Don’t get me wrong, not all men are like that.   I am so blessed because most of my male friends are respect me in our friendship.  They really appreciate me as their Asian lady friend.  For those who have ‘naughty’ intention to us, FUCK OFF k.  Please do remember, if you do something bad to us ladies, remember your mom and your sisters.  How do you feel if someone does whole bad things to our beloved mom and sisters?  It’s really traumatized and despair if you don’t treat us well, you know.

I am not perfect, but I always try my best to ‘filter’ who I go out with.  I try my best to say NO if I sense the person I go out with is fishy.  This rule not only refers to men, but also to the cheeky ladies too.  It’s good to try new thing, but we really need to know our limit. 

I do apologize if I use harsh words here.  I do still feel sorry for that Asian lady on the train this morning.  I hope you are all right out there, sis! 

Take care all.  I always remind myself- every step I make, there is always risk I face.  So, I need to have healthy mind and soul! 

Love you all,

Emma xx.

The climb by Mylie Cyrus

Dear bloggers,

This song really reflects my motivation and my life right now.  Hope you enjoy the song as I do!   

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb (yeah)

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh

Lyric from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/m/miley_cyrus/the_climb.html

Please click to this link to listen the song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3g7nlpNTPwE

Enjoy dear!

Have a nice day.

Love,

Emma xx.

“You look like a nice lady”- an English little girl, Saturday.

Dearest bloggers,

Last Saturday, I was at the Victoria Coach Station, waited for my coach to Cardiff at 7.30pm. I got there early after came back from Harrods with Ami. 

I had a very long and depressed week.  Things were up and down in my study now.  So many things, on top of that, my concerns about my parents, especially my dad. I know, he will be all right.  Anyway, I shall write my worriness in another post. 

Back to Victoria Coach Station- I was sitting and as usual, I never missed my book.  I was reading The Valkyries by Paolo Coelho.  From nowhere, an English little girl sat next to me. She looked at me and smiled.  I smiled back.  For no reason, she said,

“You look like a nice lady.  At school, my friends always say that Asian ladies aren’t good but they are wrong because you are a nice lady.” 

Then, I said ‘thank you’ and was surprised when she said to me.   I think she was 6 or 7 years old.  When I did my master, I studied play therapy course. There was an argument ‘whether or not children lie at their young age?’   My argument was children never lie unless the lie behavior is learnt from adults. 

The little girl, really made my evening.  I was so down lately and was thinking what’s the point for me to feel down and care about ‘the big fish’ says.  God always shows me that there are people around me- support, love, and care about me. 

Sometime, I can become so blind because surrounding by big fishes.  My fear builds up every day.  My fear demotivates me and makes me down and depress.  I forget to listen to myself and to my needs. I forget to feel love from others.  Some people are good in influencing others by their power and status. How danger power and status are!  

Tomorrow will be another day- I feel tomorrow is kind a ‘hard’ day for me.  Hopefully not!  

Pray for me… ~Emma xx.