Happy New Year 2012!! December 31, 2011
Posted by emma1202 in Diary of Life.Tags: Happy New Year 2012, Mr Sun, Penang, Telling The Truth
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Good morning my bloggers 
How are you doing? Today is the last day of 2011! Bright and sunny in Seri Kembangan. Praise to God. What a lovely morning. I woke up at 6am and as always, morning is always my thing.
So, last night, I’ve decided to go to Penang. Just to end 2011 and start 2012. Will drive back to KL tomorrow evening. Please pray for my safe journey I always want to go somewhere. It’s either two places: Fraser’s Hills or Penang. My heart goes to these two places. This is my first time driving alone up north and for an adventureous. Normally I go with some friends. This time, I need to be brave and conquer my fear. I hope to see some miracles and find some answers of life 
Interesting, isn’t it?
Wow! Mr Sun just came up. Let me see it! Wow! Praise to God! Mr Sun looks so beautiful this morning in between greyish-blueish cloud rays Thank you Lord
My dear blogger,
Two nights ago, I told my true feeling to a friend. It feels so good to get out from my chest. It’s not a big feeling. It’s the best feeling of all. I can accept it and he also can accepts it. So, now I can move on happily. I wish I could reveal about what it is. But I know, you always keep me in your prayers. May God bless you and your family. amen.
All right then..need to get ready. Take care and have a great new year. May 2012 gives us more happiness with good relationship, good success, and good money. amen
Till then, I love you all. Remember, my tagline “Love yourself, then others know you love them” ~ Emma xoxox.
Going Home December 28, 2011
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Dear my bloggers,
I wish you are well and happy. Just want to let you know, I am flying back to KL tonight. I am quite nervous now actually. There are a couple of things that I am still waiting for. One of them is I have a talk with the youth this afternoon at 3pm. Kinda nervous as it’s been a long time I didn’t give a talk or sharing session with youths. I know I am used to this.
And another thing is …I cannot reveal here. Please keep your prayers for me and my smooth journey. I hope my application is approved. amin.
All right then, take care and miss you all! Love ~ Emma xx
Merry Xmas To You!! :D December 25, 2011
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Good morning and Merry Xmas to you all,
How are you doing? It’s raining in Kuching. Oh yeah, I am back to Kuching last week. Few reasons to come back. One big reason is to take a break from my life in KL and people over there! Too many things happened and I really needed to recharge! 
Now, I feel homesick. Missing my apartment and my single life in KL. I think I cannot be at one place for more than a week! When I decided to fly back to Kuching, I didn’t buy my return ticket. I didn’t know when to come back. Then few days ago, I bought my air ticket back and will fly back to KL next Wednesday night at 8. I have a company this time.
Last week, I spent my day time at the faculty. It was so pleasant to be with close friends. Some familiar faces and some local friends. Unlike in KL, most of my friends are international. I just need to balance my life up.
I feel that my visit this time has many purposes. Too many family dramas, too many other dramas. No doubt, it’s a tensed situation in family. And friends, well…I don’t know what to believe and I keep my prayers. I don’t want to get hurt and hurt others as well. I did tell a special friend of mine about my feelings. I think he needed to know about my real feeling and it’s very important as I want to have a healthy working environment next year. Not only working environment, but also my personal life.
At the moment, I am thinking deeply. I’d like to help a friend. But for some reasons, if I helped ‘in this kind of situation’ (just say it’s M), I am afraid if I lost him. Friendship doesn’t go along with M. It’s a bad bad thing. I need to think how to not feel awkward and our friendship is remained after this. I feel that as his friend, I need to help him. I can feel his burden and no one cares and knows. There were many times I had this thought- if he is really married, then where is the wife? What’s the point of having a wife, but couldn’t help? Oh well, that’s another story, isn’t it? So, see how it goes. I hope I can help him on the basis of our friendship. I want to show him that he’s not alone (he always tells me that he’s alone in this journey and needs to work out by himself), and want to tell him, what happiness means. For God’s willing
Oh yeah, remember when I shared with you all about the M proposal? Did I tell everyone, I agreed to talk about this? Yes, at first I was chicken out. hahahha Last night, on emas eve, I talked to him. He was really serious and for God’s willing, we are going to see and sit down and talk about this thoroughly. It’s going to be tough due to our big differences. My concern is about his sacrifice to convert to Islam, his move to Malaysia, and many things. But I do believe this, if a man wants to do this because of wanting to be with me, I guess, I can consider his proposal. Yes, love is another story. Love doesn’t always mean we will be fine. So many things need to think about. Like money which this topic or issue always becomes a problem in marriage nowadays. I know I have to go back to my first intention- why do I want to get married? I want companionship. I want to be with someone who loves me, makes me happier, and appreciate this life. And at the same time, I want stability and security in all aspects. amen..I know, I am a demanding.
all righ then, take care.
love~emma xx.
