Family gathering..

Dear my bloggers,

 How are you guys doing? Hope you are all right. I’m back to Kuching. Arrived Kuching on Wednesday evening. I had a fruitful time at the conference in Penang. Met resilience experts, identify the needs of resilience in Malaysia and even in Asia. It’s my time to implement my study. It’s really hot in Kuching in these few days. Praise to God we have air-cond to cool the house. However, it still hot and really makes me headache. Can’t go out at this time, especially in the afternoon. Hope it will rain again this evening.

This coming Sunday, my parents will organize a family gathering. We are going to have ala-kampung dishes. For instance, sambal belacan with ulam-ulaman, etc. hhehe…I’ll plan to take video of family gathering. It’s so nice to have family around. It’s been nearly 3-4 weeks I am in Kuching.

I am glad that I came back and spend time with my parents more than last time. I know I cannot replace my time last time. My dad is feeling much better now. Alhamdullillah. All right guys, take care of yourself. Be with your loved ones. Appreciate the time. Love and care for them while they are still with us.

I learnt this when I was away from my loved ones. It’s so hard to be apart with my loved ones. I feel anxiety, depression, PTSD, etc. I know sometime I do feel hard, but I always try to remind myself, there are some people have more hard time than me.

I hope God always give us the strength, faith, and show us the light to the right path. Amen. Love always from Kuching,

Emma xx.

“After you, please..”

Dear all,

In these few days, when I went out, I felt sexy and felt like ‘beautiful’.  Wore my pair of jeans, my old blouse, my Laura Ashley sunglasses, and my scarft…mmm…can imagine?  Of course, you can’t for those who never seen or met me.  hahhaha… Oh dear …I feel great when I can wear my old outfits.  The confidence level is higher. 

This afternoon, after I settled my income tax thingies,  I went to Tun Jugah for window shopping. mm..Could I call it as window shopping if I bought a t-shirt from Hush Puppies? LOL.  Walked through the escalator, there was a man with his daughter.  He was looking at me from far and wanted to go down as well.  I looked at him and smiled.  I didn’t mean flirting with him.  With my good self-esteem and his ‘treat’ for me, “After you, please..” and smiled, I felt good. 

Thanks mate..

Guys, treat any ladies like that in this world, we will be appreciated. No matter what size we are.  I am still conservative. I still want men open doors for me, send me flowers, candle lit dinner, etc.    But don’t do it often.  Surprise me, even though I don’t like surprises

All right guys..it’s nearly dinner time. Need to clean myself for family dinner. Kinda rule in the house! LOL.

Take care and always feel good about yourself k.

I miss you all. I want to ‘come back’ and wait for my ‘come back’.

Love,
Emma xx.

Raining..

Dear all,

It’s raining this evening.  Alone in my living room and my blog is my company at the moment.  J is busy with his easter preparation. So he will busy at church.  I didn’t know about the celebration. I know there is Good Friday where Christians celebrate ’something’.  They pray.  In London and the US, easter is commercialised, therefore the meaning of easter is uncleared.  J told me a little bit on the phone this evening, but I think I want to find some info about this celebration after this. There is no harm to know, right?

Before I flew back, there were a lot of easter sales, easter bunnies, soft toys, etc. So, I bought some for my little cousins- just for fun.  Oh well, I guess we are in this generation and our kids’ generations, we need to be knowledgable about the whole thing. Ok, fine..not the whole things, but at least some.  So that we become wiser  

Watching Samantha Who?  in this cold living room. Turned on the air-cond and enjoying the coldness. And writing my blog.  I think will do my work after this  

Nothing much to write actually.   Write again later

Love,

Emma xx.

In Malaysia..

Dear all,

Don’t be shocked! I am in Malaysia now, to be specific …in my hometown. There are two reasons why I am back.  What I need now from you is your prayers.  May everything goes fine with me , my family, and my PhD life.  Please don’t ask why. Because I know, it will be very hard for me to answer your questions.  I really appreciate your understanding. 

I returned home three days ago.  Still need to recover from my jetlag. How am I doing? Well, I try not to sleep during day time and sleep at night time.  Trying so hard to find some easy activities to relax.  So far so good.   

I am so glad  I am back.  To be honest, I was uncertained about me coming back though. I know my family always support for whatever I am doing.  On Tuesday, the day I got to Kuching, my family and I had lunch and dinner together with my aunts, uncle, and cousins. It was ‘crazy’ and happy moment. We jumped and hugged happily.    Thanks everyone!  

To dear, thanks for spending time with me. Thank you for finding some time to be with me.  I really appreciate it. I really need all your TLC. 

To my dearly friends in the UK,

Guys…you guys are such a great friend to me.  I know I will returning to London soon.  I hope to see you all soon and please do keep in touch.

Till then, take care and I do apologize for not up-to-date my blog recently.  I will try my best to be with you all. 

Time to sleep.  Good night and sweet dreams.

Love,

Emma xx.

The climb by Mylie Cyrus

Dear bloggers,

This song really reflects my motivation and my life right now.  Hope you enjoy the song as I do!   

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb (yeah)

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh

Lyric from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/m/miley_cyrus/the_climb.html

Please click to this link to listen the song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3g7nlpNTPwE

Enjoy dear!

Have a nice day.

Love,

Emma xx.

“You look like a nice lady”- an English little girl, Saturday.

Dearest bloggers,

Last Saturday, I was at the Victoria Coach Station, waited for my coach to Cardiff at 7.30pm. I got there early after came back from Harrods with Ami. 

I had a very long and depressed week.  Things were up and down in my study now.  So many things, on top of that, my concerns about my parents, especially my dad. I know, he will be all right.  Anyway, I shall write my worriness in another post. 

Back to Victoria Coach Station- I was sitting and as usual, I never missed my book.  I was reading The Valkyries by Paolo Coelho.  From nowhere, an English little girl sat next to me. She looked at me and smiled.  I smiled back.  For no reason, she said,

“You look like a nice lady.  At school, my friends always say that Asian ladies aren’t good but they are wrong because you are a nice lady.” 

Then, I said ‘thank you’ and was surprised when she said to me.   I think she was 6 or 7 years old.  When I did my master, I studied play therapy course. There was an argument ‘whether or not children lie at their young age?’   My argument was children never lie unless the lie behavior is learnt from adults. 

The little girl, really made my evening.  I was so down lately and was thinking what’s the point for me to feel down and care about ‘the big fish’ says.  God always shows me that there are people around me- support, love, and care about me. 

Sometime, I can become so blind because surrounding by big fishes.  My fear builds up every day.  My fear demotivates me and makes me down and depress.  I forget to listen to myself and to my needs. I forget to feel love from others.  Some people are good in influencing others by their power and status. How danger power and status are!  

Tomorrow will be another day- I feel tomorrow is kind a ‘hard’ day for me.  Hopefully not!  

Pray for me… ~Emma xx.

Swollen right ankle -_-

Dear all,

It’s Sunday morning- well nearly noon though. Got up nearly 10. It was sunny when I got up- I really appreciate the sunshine here compared to Malaysia. I guess, when we are away from something we had before, we didn’t really appreciate. Humans do take for granted of what in front of us.  Now, back to cloudy. lol.  The weather in London is so unpredictable.  Yesterday was great though!  Sunny from morning till late afternoon.

I had a great Saturday night with friends.  Watched movies, played monopoly, had good dinner (I cooked Malaysian desert), and had good laugh with them.  Well, something happened after I had a quick shower.  I fell down at the staircase. I missed one step. Can you imagie that? Gosh! This is the story – I brought a chair downstair and some of my dirty shirts  to downstair.  My right ankle is hurting badly now. Feel hard to walk.  It’s swollen. Ok Ok…not that I cannot walk at all. I just exagerated.  The swollen is true.  huhuhu.. This morning I went to the toilet, I hardly walked.   Then I put some heating pack wrapped around my right ankle.   I think will get some ice later to reduce the swollen.  Or any other home remedy?  Ok Ok..I stop whining and be a baby about this…but I am hurting.. in pain..i mean, my right ankle.. (lol)…  If I was at home, I would just sit in the couch or rest and no need to do anything. This morning, after had breakfast, I cleaned the kitchen, washed the dishes, etc.. see…I can do the housechore..but in here, I want to be a baby! lol.

All right guys, what are you up to today? Not going anywhere? I think I just stay at home and ‘recovery’.  Hope I can do my uni work. 

Till then, take care and have a great Sunday ahead.

Love,

Emma xx.

Friday nite- ironing?

Hey guys,

What a wierd way for me to spend my Friday night.  I ironned almost of my clothes. Finally, did some ironing since I moved. LOL.  I ironned my bedding as well, for the first time here!  lol.  Ironing, laundry, and hoovering are not my things in house chores.  It took me at least 3 hours to finish!  But at least I enjoyed myself by listening the music.  I think I need to enjoy my single life here.  Go to cinema, theatre by myself. I can shop by myself. But not to cinema or to theatre.  mm…I should try that. lol. 

Tomorrow is another day.  Hope I can do my uni work.  I know,  it’s Saturday.  Well, will see how.  I want to have a break like couple of hours at least with a friend.

All right, it’s really late. Need to snooze. hehehe…Good night London. Good morning Malaysia. 

Loads of hug and kiss from me.

Love

Emma xx.

Weight management 09.

Hi guys,

All right.. I am still working on my weight..not to say ideal weight.  This goal is for me per say- not for others. I think so far, I haven’t achieve my goal yet to reduce 5 kg per month.  Quek will be pissed off. However, I managed to reduce my size.  Still taking herbalife products to help me (oh well..not that consistent, but will try again).  And exercise, here and  there, not intensive one.  I wish I had someone to motivate me to do it here. lol. ( an excuse from me).  A lot of people will piss here…lol.  I enjoy my food since I moved.  But, I always remember to control and drink more Herbalife tea and water. 

Anyway, for those who are trying so hard to diet, how about contact me and we can do it together.  I mean, those who are in  southeast London.  LOL. 

Good luck to us, for those who want to loose and gain weight!  Herbalife can do that too…help those who want to gain weight  

Happy Friday- oh, it’s Friday night.

LISTEN-  ”Is there anyone want to bring me out tonight? ” LOL.  Feel wanna to go out for couple of hours without thinking about my phd thingie.  Is there? Is there?  Cheers

Love always from me,

Emma xxx.

 

Not to promoting Herbalife, but it does help me in term of my health.  Try it!  No harm to try right. Yeah, it’s quite pricy as a student here.  huhuh…’Wo bo lui’ mean I don’t have money…hehhehe…

My birthday in London 2009.

Dear all,

May all is fine.  It’s Sunday afternoon in London.  It’s been a very quiet week after my birthday.  Decided to stay at home and catch up all my errands. 

My birthday was splendid. Spent my time with my special friend.  We went to an Italian restaurant and had a good time.  We were in the oldest town in England.  Yeah, in my previous column, I said I might go to Paris to celebrate my birthday.  My other friend needed to work and had to change my plan. I really appreciate what my friend did to me.  Thanks babe! 

The best thing was it was snowing on the 12th night!  It was a perfect night! 

Here, I’d like to say thank you to the lovely persons in my life:

To my parents, Junitta Law @ Latifah Mohd Alli & Madihie Sirat ~  First of all, I love you both.  Thank you for your fruit cake.  Mak, you sent me 2 birthday cards this year with your baby photos in one of them.  So cute and touched! Bapak, thanks for your birthday card too.  The red card..wow! I loved it so much. You really know my favorite color and thanks for the letter.  Thank you for your prayers.  I know it’s hard for us now to be separated. I hope I will not let everyone’s down, especially you both, Mak & Bapak.   I miss you both.  Love you too.  Nothing much I can write here as it’s hard for me to express my feeling in words at the moment. So my dearly mak and bapak, hug and kiss for me to you both.  I love you both:) xx.

To my sister, Aspa ~ I know you are not really involved in my life physically, but you are always be my inspiration in what I am doing now for my life know.  How I wish we could have sister-sister relationship where I can talk everything with you, but I know it’s impossible.   Anyway, thank you sis! Hug and kiss for you to me. 

To Dear ~  You’ve been there for me as always.  Thank you for your support and care.  May everything is fine with you and your new responsibility. 

To my family~ Thank you to all. Usu Laki, Usu Ompuan and family, Kak Coryina & Aldrin, Kak Shirley, Biri, and Danial, Thank you for everything, your love, your support, your care.  Thank you for taking care of my parents too.  May God bless  you all.  Hug and kiss from me.

To babe ~  Thank you for everything.  I really appreciate it from bottom of my heart.  I know you had a long week and yet you were there for me.  Indeed, it was really hard celebrating my birthday away from home.  My family always celebrate birthdays for everyone at home. We gather with other family members and this is the moment we can spend time together in busy day.  So Babe, thank you again and may everything goes fine with you, your personal life, and your business. You are a kind person and I really appreciate our friendship.    Hugs and kisses from me to you, Babe.

To P ~ Thank you for your weekend. Loved it as usual.  You really made my birthday in advanced great!  You cooked for me and I miss your cooking every day.   Thank you P.  May you have a great life and everything goes smoothe for you and your job.  Hugs and kisses from me to you, P.

To my roomie ~ Hey sexy   Thank you for the lovely birthday morning.  You sang a birthday song for me. LOL. It was hillarious.  That was kewl!  You really made my birthday awesome !  Hug and kiss for u too

To Cikgu Jaq  (Fl, USA)~ Hi Cikgu.  Thank you for your snow caps ( I got 3 knitted snow caps, or here, they call them binnie hat).  Loved them all. I wore the blue-blackish one in the evening.  So cool!  Really appreciate them all.  Hope my future kids (if there any..lol) will have a chance to wear them somewhere in this world.  Oh Cikgu..thank you thank you.  Hug and kiss for u as well

To my friends ~ Thank you to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday and good wishes for this year. Really appreciate it.  Mas, hope your prayer will be answered by Allah.  Amen.  Oon, thanks for your friendship since we met.  Atika, thank you to you too.  I know this week is really hard for you. But hey, there’s must be a good reason behind it right.   Man, thanks for your lovely gift from Japan (I got a hand-fan from Man.)  And those who I didn’t mention here, thanks for everything. 

All right guys..I need to stop being emotional. lol.  I am doing my laundry.  Supposed my roomie doing the laundry. Hate doing laundry!  Wanna go out for awhile.  Need to chill out. I feel wanna to sleep, but my head says- Don’t go to bed. Need to make myself tired!  I need to watch out my money flow now. huhu..

Take care and thank you for everything. 

Love,

Emma xx.