Happy Birthday to….

Hello everyone

I’d like to wish Happy birthday to

1. Aldrian- He’s 3 today.  We celebrated his birthday unofficially last week at the Sarawak Golf Club, Kuching together with advanced wedding annivessary of my uncle and aunt

2. Oon, my best friend.  She’s in Penang. Thank you for always being there, though sometime I woke you up after midnight with my problems   I don’t know what to get for Oon. How I wish I could find a bakery shop and floral shop in Penang.  Wish Malaysia was like England and America.  It was easier to plan some surprises from far.  Any idea for Oon’s birthday? 

3. To Tuti and Ayu, happy birthday to you both.  Wherever you are, you both are always in my heart.  Look forward to see you both again

4.  To Sis Swee Lan, on the 15th, Happy birthday to you. 

Who else? lol.  I cannot remember now. 

It’s going to rain again in Samarahan and Kuching.  It’s good to have cool temp in the evening.  I need to drive back to Kuching to have drink with J and straight home after that.  My mom told me that she wants to go to Aldrian’s house tonight.    Though, Aldrian ’scares’ of her, but she still wants to get some candies to him and make him happy. Not only Aldrian, but Danial too.  Mom says it’s been a long time she didn’t visit Aldrian and Danial’s house. lol.  So Sis Coryina and Sis Shirley, hope it’s all right to visit you all tonight.   

All right then, take care.  Happy birthday to all

Love~ Emma xoxoxo.

New hairstyle, new brain?

Hello everyone,

How’s everyone?  Hope you are all right.

My morning was not really ‘great for working. My plan was I wanted to go to work but… hehehe…   What I did was I went to Rojak Kuchei cafe and had my breakfast there. nyum nyum nyum… Then I asked myself whether the massage blind center was openned or not. Yehe…It was openned!  So, I had an one and a half hour massage. Phew! My body was sored actually.  hehehe.. Then, I called my cousin, Sister Swee Lan who runs hair saloon.  Jeng jeng jeng…she said “lai …lai… (come…come…)”  And I did..  

So now, I have a new hairstyle. lol.   I prefered short hair (shoulder length) as it’s too hot in Malaysia to have long hair.  And I am not good in taking care of my hair. I always wish to have my own hair dresser wherever I go.  lol.    Hope one day my dream will come true.  This is one of my dreams. lol.  (Too much, isn’t it?)  Another thing is I look so young, like a teenager. Is that a compliment or what?  *-*

The next question will be -  Will I have a new brain? New way of thinking?  Able to focus and refocus?  No laziness? 

All right then, take care and have a good day.

Love~ Emma xxx.

p/s:  It’s raining heavily in Kuching. Those who are in Kuching, drive safely.   Don’t wet yourself so much xxx

Tips for guys..

Hello everyone

Good morning. How’s everyone? Wishing you have a great weekend so far.

Still in Kuching and hoping to find my destiny soon.  So many things need to consider and reconsider. 

Guys,

Praise to God, I met good men in my life. Of course, I met not good ones, but I learnt from the lessons. Anyway, the reason I said this because I like to be treated like as a fine lady. lol.  What I mean by this is I found myself that I am quite conventional.  I prefer  when a man pulls my chair when I want to get up, respect me a fine lady, opens the door or car door for me, etc.   I like to be spoilt by my man.  I can be independent, but it’s really nice if a man can do this sometime to me. I feel honored

I know some of my girlfriends, they are not into this kind of atttitude’s from men.  They think this is nonsense.  For me, I really appreciate it.  It’s nice to have this kind of moments sometimes. 

So guys, if you think your girlfriend or wife has similar interest like me, I think you should consider my tips- how to treat your lady?  Ask me more about this, if you are interested. hehehe..

Distract my mind for awhile. 

All right then, take care all.

Love you all~ Emma xx.

Just because cheese cake

Good morning all,

Hope you are all right.  Things are getting crazy here. 

Anyway, I have a story to share and may be it’s a good thing to think about, especially to men.  

This is the story: 

I went to Kuching Hilton last night for dessert after went for dinner with someone’s special with his colleagues, I would called them as his business partners.  He brought a young Chinese lady to the dinner as well. mm..So weird..She was on her holiday to Kuching from KL.  I asked him was that his gf? He said, “He has many gfs.”  As a his ‘friend’, he couldn’t do that. He called this morning, I said, I was insecured if this thing continued.  He said how could I trust him?  Whom should I trust? Him or others?  He himself told me that he has many gfs.  Think..think… lol

Right, back to Hilton.  We had cheesecake. He ordered cheese cake and he knew I couldn’t finish my cheese cake. He asked me whether I wanted to share or not. I said OK.   

Then we went to the cafe.  Talked and talked.  Then the lady came back.  She talked and flirted with him. Fair enough.  I heard he asked him to try the cheesecake..my cheesecake without my permission. AfterI realised she ate my cheese cake continuously, I didn’t eat my cheese cake anymore.  I told him this morning about this and he didn’t realise that and said sorry. 

My point is I won’t share my man with any lady. He cannot do this to me or other lady.  With this kind of attitude, I cannot accept.  Personal relationship is personal relationship to me.  Career is career.  I know how to differentiate it.  

My second point is I want my cheese cake!   It won’t be the same if he buys me another one.  I will share with someone if I offer her.  Knowledge- I love to share.  But personal things, I don’t!  Really piss me off! 

So to all men, if you do this to your gf or wife, I think you are being selfish and never thought of your partner.  This is not a good attitude.  I will never trust this kind of man. 

I admit I am a high-maintenance and I know my limits. But I always remind myself, I never try to use man’s money.  I know what’s best for me. Even this speacial one told me last night that I was ‘hard’ and fussy. My best friend told me that I have strong character.  Is that good or bad?  It depends on situation, doesn’t it? 

All right then, take care and have a good Friday ahead. 

Take care and be careful in what you are doing. Be sincere.  ~ Emma xx.

A memory…

Hello guys,

Time flies very fast, doesn’t it?  Today is the third day of Eid. 

I went to the Spring this afternoon as I wanted to buy some books.  I found a book which I knew the author.  I was so surprised and all my past memory with this author came back.  I was smiling while reading his book.  According to the biography of his book, he’s an expert speaker and won many prizes.  I skimmed the book. In fact, I skimmed one page per page.  This is what I always do as a bookworm. 

There were many pictures in the book.  Suprisingly, there were a lot of photos of Chinese participants who attended his workshops.  Only one picture of a Muslim lady with her veil.  I told myself, he never changed and very smart in term of marketing his business.  All the comments of his book and his workshops/seminars were from Chinese community. What happen to other races like Malay, Indian, Natives, etc? I think you know what I am trying to say here. I believe you are smart. 

I thanked him because he taught me Maths.  I went tuition to his center. I dare to say, I was the best student among the Malays, the Chinese, and other races for Math subject in his center at my time.  He was surprised because every week I excelled.  Because of him,  I got A in my maths subject.    After my Form 5, he offered me to be his Math tutor and then be one of his branch managers.  I did for a couple of months. Just for few months, I resigned.  Do you want to know why?

He was bias to Malay.  I know this issue is sensitive in Malaysia.  I told him, he shouldn’t do that.  The worst thing I’ve ever heard and still remember till today is “I get a lot of money from Malays.  They (Malay students) are not good in their study, but I like to promote to Malays because they know I am good in this subject.”  I was really pissed and I said he shouldn’t say that. I am Malay and I am good in Maths, I told him. Then he replied to me, “You are different. You are Chinese.” Gosh!  I was really pissed and I resigned in 24 hours!  Dicrimination is not my thingie. Yes, I am mixed.  But I lost respect to this kind of people even though I learnt a lot from him. 

This thing happened again when I started my work and now, it happened in my previous phd journey. 

I hope one day I can ‘teach’ this kind of people how to respect others and not take advantage of others.  One of the ways is I have to show good values.  Yes, it’s true that others will step our head if we are so naive.  But, I do believe that God always protects us from bad intentions.   

That’s my story for today.  I don’t believe he writes books. I know his motive is to earn a lot of money and will get whatever he wants, no matter what happens.  It’s a good determination of his.   But only his way, I disapprove. 

Anyway, that’s his life. One day, I am sure I will meet him.  I definitely will ask a lot of questions. 

Till then, take care ~ Emma xx.

Salam Aidilfitri

Assalammualaikum wbt & Good day to my dearest bloggers,

First of all, I’d like to wish Salam Aidilfitri to all my parents, family, friends, and bloggers.  Maaf Zahir Batin.  Halal for everything. 

I am so grateful to be at home.  Be with my parents and family.  Nothing could compare this experience.   Alhamdullillah. 

My family and I would like to invite everyone to our house on the first day of Eid.  Our open-house will be from 11am to 4pm tomorrow.  We are looking forward to see you all. 

Till then, take care. 

Love~ Emma xx.

p.s: I still have a little bit of jet-lag.  Feeling sleepy now. lol.

Jet lag is kicking…

Hi again,

Couldn’t sleep. I think the jet lag is kicking or may be my period cramp makes my stomach uneasy. Oh boy!  Hope to sleep soon.  I was asleep just now for like an hour. For some reasons, I woke up and my brain started to wander around.  Thinking what had happened recently. 

I don’t know what to do now.  My brain is not ready to do my uni work.  Listening to Yaseen at the same time. 

It’s drizzling outside.  So cool. Nice.    I can hear frogs ’singing’ outside. I am not sure what song do they sing.  According to old Malay folks, if there are singing frogs outside mean that they call for more rain. lol. I am not sure how true is this. 

I am thinking to do my hair tomorrow. Before that, I need to company my mom to visit the grave yard.  Then, clean the house.  Then, I can do my hair.  Before I do the whole things, I need to do my uni application tomorrow morning.  It’s evening in the UK. Gosh,  it’s my dinner time over there. No wonder, I am a little bit hungry.  I had a small piece of pizza. lol. Poor me! I didn’t realise I just had small piece of pizza.  lol.  Two nights ago, I guess I was too tired and my body couldn’t compromise with my brain. I guess, today, I was not that tired.  lol.  I am sorry, my body.  Please bear with me.  I still have couple of years to have the same effects like this. 

All right then, I’d better check my emails.  Till then guys, good night to Malaysians.  Good evening to Londoners.  lol. 

Love~ Emma xx.

Hello everyone ;)

Hi EVeryone

How are you guys doing? It’s been for ages I didn’t update myself in this blog.  I do apologise. Life in London was crazy and hectic for me.  Time flew really fast.

Just want to let everyone knows, I am at my parents’ house.  Praise to God, everything went well from London to Kuching.  I managed to carry my stuffs to Kuching. I was panicking the night before because I knew I carried more than 20kg and more than 7kg for hand luggage. Praise to God, because of I am student, the lady at the counter allowed me to carry 35 kg and 10 kg of weighs.  Btw, I used Royal Brunei this time.  The flight crews were so friendly.  I met someone who’s doing her phd at the University of Bath.   We exchanged idea and talked a lot of things.  She’s in her final year.  From her way of doing phd, I boosted my self-esteem and self-confidence in doing my phd.  To be honest, I had low self-esteem and self -confidence about what I was doing.  I didn’t get the right support.  Alhamdullillah, I know what I am doing now and what will I do in the future. 

Oh yeah, flew back to Malaysia on the 14th of September and got into Kuching on the 15th.  As usual, my parents, my aunt and cousin came to the airport and picked me up.  So nice to see my parents.  I am blessed to have such a great family.  Alhamdullillah.  My aunt, uncle, and cousins…masyaAllah..only Allah knows how I feel inside my heart. 

Yesterday, we had this kenduri arwah for my late grandma.  Almost everyone was here at my house.  I was so happy to see my family gathered in my house. Everyone was so cheerful though we were all tired.

As for jet lag, I try not to sleep during the day.  lol.  So far so good. But at nights, my eyes and body say that I need to rest early.   I hope my body is recovered from jet lag before Eid. 

Didnt do much today. Did my banking, checked my emails, and replied some.  I got an email from UWIC too.  Havent replied to them.  I need to submit my application soon to Brighton University. My meeting with them was quite promising. I am looking forward to start my phd soon.  amin. 

Tomorrow will busy preparing for Eid.  Thinking to cook on Eid eve. hehehe…  Will see how it goes. 

All right guys, insyaAllah will update you more later. Time to bed.  zzzzz… hehhe..

Love~ Emma xx.

Counting my days

Good morning everyone

How u guys doing? May all is well. 

I slept well last night, for some reason.  Praise to God. I really need that sleep. However, I had a dream.  mm..really woke me up.  lol. 

Anyway, I am counting my days to be with my beloved ones.    I hope it’s not for good..it’s not for good yet…  I hope to come back and complete my mission.  Amen. 

All right then, take care and have a good Sunday ahead. 

Love,

Emma xx.

Expressing…

Hi all,

How are you?  You must be wondering- where the hell is Emma? hahahha… Sorry guys…my life is really ‘down’ now.  I need to make my life ups again! How to do that, I don’t know.  I am trying my hard now. 

My morning didn’t go well today.  I woke up so early because I had a doctor appointment at 8.  When I told the receptionist about my appointment, she simply said ‘You must interpreted the lady yesterday wrongly.’ I said, I don’t think so because I asked the lady whether I should call back as on Thursday to make my appointment.   She said “I can look if there is any free for tomorrow for you.’  I am frustrated with the medical system here though.  I cannot make an appointment in advance. Of course they have good reason behind.  But still I feel this procedure is not right.  There was one old man came this morning and asked was there any availability. He had to come back 20 to 11.  We are ill and expect us to come back for the second time to the surgery.  Oh dear! 

Then came home with annoyed  and I didn’t feel good as people around me had to listen to me.  I didn’t smile as I supposed be.  I whined and annoyed.  Guys, thank you for your patience. 

I finally got what I wanted from my former university. Gosh, I waited for many weeks and this week, I couldn’t stand it anymore. I don’t have much time here.  I know I was so pushy and demanding today but I had to this right.  Might be I was too soft and people tend to take advantage on me.  I asked and asked but in a nice and polite way.  In the real world, there is no such nice way.  Poor me!

Now, it’s my turn to proceed.  I got what I want right.  So, I will do my part and the rest, I leave it to Allah. 

Su was right.  What I need right now is my mom.  I can feel pressure is around me.  It’s negative pressure.  Too much to handle by myself.  I want to take it slowly but I don’t have time to take my sweet time.  I want to take it fasts but I have to wait for another sides. 

I am grateful that I have friends who are willing to listen and help me.   I cannot pay their kindness, only God can. 

All right then, take care and I hope in my next blog, I won’t be like this.  I am tired.  It’s not tired like we always say tired.  I am wondering- is this kinda PTSD or depression symptom?  Oh Lord, please  give me strength to face all circumtances.  Make my life journey easier. Give me good people and good support to help me along the way.  Oh Lord, please don’t be so distant from me as I really need your protection and guidance in this life.  Amin.

Till then, salam Ramadhan.

Love always ~ Emma x.